There has been a struggle… It’s more lack of will… I haven’t been keeping up on it.
I can offer excuses, but nothing changes the fact I haven’t managed my blog well at all this year.
You can easily see in the [Archives] how much I’ve been struggling.
I haven’t done a writing blog post in a while either, although I have quite a few now on the page. I should start it up again.
The will to exist is missing, let alone the will to keep this blog active.
I’m struggling in so many directions.
I do know having too much on my plate overwhelms me easily. It’s why I stick to shorts as often as possible. It’s why my work is always lean on description and information. It’s why I fail to update archives and other things when I’m supposed to.
That’s being ND. That’s having ADHD.
But I’m also falling into depression. I know that.
I don’t have access to mental health care that won’t spiral me further into depression.
I need to get out of my hole. And I can’t. Because if I seek help, others won’t receive it.
I’m surviving. I’m not thriving. I assume I’ll never thrive.
Why am I trying at all?
I’m gonna go listen to 지. He makes everything better.